waiting for dawn
i was born to belong nowhere,
to walk along rocks, waves,
the ether of luminous plankton
upon the bed of the sea.
i existed here before this day broke
over you, untouched like dew.
but the sun rises and i am of a new language
re-establishing verbs with proper heart. right hand
over my breast, i fetch coffee and
yoghurt while you read the news:
“Hyacinths will save us”. the earth
must love us after all, in diamonds and in coal.
when the night flickered its last flame, i let it go. it was the right thing to do. i can’t remember what we said then. only petals of warmth, clove-d smoke on my tongue. i must have slept. you must have too. trying to keep love blurry&underwater.
how light the raindrops contents are
how gently the earth touches us,
they seem to prefer us to linger in this
moss green seascape draped in velvet….
Heidegger must be right, that being truly exists
and nothingness? that will be left for poets
to intuit. i only know that the moment you try
embrace me, we are smeared by the stars.
luminous milky sky and summer winds on the
eleventh floor. you alone know what my face
hides, a face i didn’t know could be beautiful.
summer golden and ill-adorned
i wanted to hide within myself so deeply
so that fortune could not find her hands
upon my neck. i don’t know how the moon
always finds her courage to step outside
on nights like these, with
small blasphemers howling out her name
from leaf to leaf, ignorant of aquinas.
for all their faults, they seem more skilled at
accepting eternal recurrences of the same event
than i am. they always fall in love and
put up no resistance.
jitters before traveling sound like a key turning in its door
left and right and you know, one way you are locked in;
the other opens you to all. now here we are.
my fingertips aching for mountains, lakes,
places only we know that go on memorising you:
evenings with orion’s teeth glimmering,
days of scaled-back hillsides so wildly hungry at its calm.
it all went just like that,
and we remain a little unhappy
as usually in love.